back to whining

Having cancer is very worrisome. Sure, the health concerns, and the time away from work and less income, and the lack of appropriate pain medications are something of a concern. But now I REALLY have something to worry about. My hair is starting to grow in. Mainly on my head but I just noticed some on my legs, too. I don't mind the hair on the legs. Now the hair on my head is about 1/8 of an inch long and a little fuzzy. It hasn't grown to the point to where you can tell what color it is. That is the problem. It looks kind of a dull shade of blond, which is what I would have expected. That is probably the color it would be without hair coloring, or "natural highlights" as I like to call it, as I enjoy lying. But here is the source of my worry. Right now, you can't tell what color it is going to come in, and one of the possibilities would be um, gray. Not that i think it would eventually come in gray because I don't really have the DNA for gray. And of course I have tools to make my hair whatever color i want. Having been without hair, I appreciate it more. Sort of like my left boob. I am not sure how soon one can dye ones hair after it comes back after chemo. Looks like if I did that now, it would just color my head. When totally bald, I did not mind going around au naturel because bald didn't look bad. But something that could be gray is not something I want to advertise. OK, this is where the five wigs and 500 scarves will come into play. I am surprised that no one has invented some kind of dye for new chemo hair. Clearly there are not enough people aware of the real things people with cancer worry about.